September 12, 2011 § Leave a Comment
Trever and I have a tradition of having existential conversations on Sunday’s. We call it the “Sunday Breakdown.” I can remember the first Sunday in August 2007 when we were trying to figure our lives out–whatever that means–lying on the bed of his chevy truck eating kettle corn from a local school fundraiser fair that we happened upon in South Orange County.
At that moment we decided we wanted to travel around the States doing art and music and live in a trailer. We figured we would play and paint in coffee shops, bars, venues, and any other place that would take us. We had it all planned out in our minds. About a month later, we purchased a trailer and Trever felt the pressure of making money on a monthly basis. Things changed and we never traveled, but the Sunday Breakdown never went away.
We continually spent our Sunday’s discussing our life goals and figuring out what we wanted to do with our years together. Family life slowed that down and Audrey became our present focus. Mmmm, and that felt so much better. Rather than focusing on how we were dissatisfied with where we were at and pondering where we were going, we just sat and basked in the present.
It wasn’t until more recent revelation in the last five or six weeks that we feel like we really started living in reality in the present state. Although after yesterday’s Breakdown we realized how much more so we could be and what that looks like. It was the first one in many Sunday’s where the discussion wasn’t “how can we create a future that we like” but:
• “How can we live more in the present?”
• “What are we doing now that is unrealistically living in an unknown future?”
• “What would it look like if we continued right where we were at?”
I must admit, like most Sunday Breakdowns, we didn’t come up with any conclusions or solutions. We just know we want to live. Rather than creating a fantasy life or hoping for fame and riches, we long to enjoy ourselves in the present. It’s a lot harder if you think about it. We discussed how we might live in the spot that we’re at in this very moment to flourish as individuals and as a family to allow our creativity and love to overflow. Maybe next Sunday we’ll chip away at it.
Photo: Trever and Audrey swinging at the park enjoying their Sunday.