The Go Away Syndrome.

May 5, 2013 § Leave a Comment

This syndrome has plagued my entire life, nay, most of my existence. While I can’t attest to whether I have literally never noticed it, I can say this is the first time I recall hearing it and seeing it consciously recently. Go away.

I hear myself telling all sorts of things to go away. Feelings, food, habits, sicknesses, some good, some bad. Mostly what I would judge as bad. This is when you know something is an addiction, a conditioned habit. And not truth, not consciousness.

When I go into this mode, I feel as if I’m sleeping. Everything is in slow mo, yet I can’t control it or remember it two seconds later–I have lost my ability over my short term memory so everything just looks and sounds like a blur in a dream. I see blurry colors and hear muffled sounds.

This is a trigger, I am going back to the emotional age of the memory that was in my subconscious. It is fight or flight mode in the present, yet my emotions and reaction are from, say, 1983. Until I deescalate and realize in the Now that there is no threat, I will stay in Sleep Mode.

After a scenario like the above occurred, and a silent meditation guided me through my early life of learning “Go Away”, I felt prompted by my Higher Self to write this down.

When my mother became pregnant with me, I felt her first feeling as she felt a little bit off that day, “Go away!” she said to the feeling. But the feeling was me.

When I came out of the safe home and into the light I heard, “Go away!” as the doctors rebuked my fast heart rate and this feeling was familiar, this feeling felt like me.

As I grew and felt this feeling within me, I heard it everywhere I went. At home, I heard it for my choice of clothing, my loud voice, and my inconsistent behaviors. At school, by kindergarten, this feeling imprint was so strong that my teacher could feel it. We moved hundreds of miles away and my mother home schooled me.

I heard it from my third grade English and History teacher and countless others. Church folk, neighborhood kids, and my own family. I heard them literally reflecting my predominant feeling, “Go away.”

By my teen years I had it down. I had tried more things than anyone my age that I had ever known and I was graduating a year early. That is, I had said “Go away” to more than most. In college, I said “Go away” to five schools, hundreds of friends, and countless boyfriends and one night stands.

By my career, I was a professional. I could “go away” anything. I could “Go away” jobs, opportunity, money, love, electronics, basically every material possession I’ve ever owned, and even my husband and kids! Up to this day, this very moment did I not see this pattern unfolding. My mothers innocent feeling I had internalized as her not wanting me, not loving me.

This translated into a dying, so to speak, to everything around me. I could not bear to be rejected, so I would reject first–this being reflected in my energy. I would die to my good behavior just to feel the familiar first feeling. I would do bad just to feel that pain. So as I grew up, I learned what behaviors provided this adrenaline rush, this lie, to fill my being.

Wearing swim suits. Singing loudly. Breaking things. Screaming. Kicking. Sucking my finger. Getting over activities quickly. Acting rudely. Standing in class. Running wildly. Staying up past one. Watching R movies. Masturbating. Racing fifteen year olds. Starting secret clubs. Being sneaky. Climbing high trees. Calling myself “Jack”. Cheating on homework. Running fast. Holding boy hands. Skateboarding. Listening to punk. Making out. Singing Dashboard. Liking a 24-year-old. Speeding. Going to second base. Selling knives. Paying for school. Having sex. Switching school. After school. After school. After school. Having more sex. Doing missions with a college degree. Waking up. Quitting missions. Getting engaged. Eloping. Having kids. Having a melt down. Getting high. Being illuminated.

Every single event from the beginning was my opportunity to become Enlightened, or consciously aware of, this fact, this truth. To wake up to it. All of these behaviors–none of which can Truly be viewed as “good” or “bad”–are all a product of the absence of love as the primary feeling. Whether the mother voices it, or not, if the mother feels an absence of love within her being, she will not be able to pass on love to her child. She will pass on the absence of love, which we call hate, yet it is much more clearly defined as Darkness.

Darkness, as you know, is not an opposite as we may think in our sleeping state which is duality. Darkness is the Mother Divine, or comfort within ourselves. In my case, and in the case of those like me, I had to go into my darkness to find love so that I may see the light.

This came to me all because my 3-year-old daughter told me to, “Go away” and I went into Sleep Mode.

There is only one conclusion I can come to: Everything is good. There is only love. Even during the times when I felt hurt at my own reflection of “Go away” (remember: this is my energy imprint, not those around me), they were always opportunities to see and hear otherwise.

If you would like help hearing your own syndromes in sleep mode, please email me. If you feel more comfortable doing so anonymously, feel free to use your mothers email account. Love to you all.

Xx
Jenny
jenny lvoe at gmail dot com

PS In conclusion, you may be asking: “How does that help?” Well, I’ll tell you. Now I will no longer be looking for the Go Away syndrome, I’ll only be hearing “Stay right where you’re at.”

Soul: Living the Nitty Gritty.

April 30, 2013 § 2 Comments

A lot has happened since I graduated from college. Much has happened since I was a shy twenty-two, searching for the answer to Who Am I? and running into nothing. When I searched, I found a new spark within myself, a love of something greater than me. I found and remembered that I love/d God. Oh yes, that’s it. Running inescapably into the arms of something greater than myself. It felt like the mother/father that I had never felt. An unconditional, total acceptance.

This feeling left me with something greater than being alone. Alone is what I felt most of my life. Alone in my feelings. Alone with my pain, anger, sorrow, sadness. Alone with my own duality. The person who I felt truly, deeply within me. And the person that I portrayed on the outside. I learned from the young age of three to keep these two separate, lest they–anyone beyond me–discover who I am and tell me otherwise.

I remember trying to bring out that true self, what I now call my Open Self, and know so well as my Soul. My soul is the immutable me. The me that is was and always will be eternal. It is my very essence. The outer reflection, my mind, body, and spirit are reflections of my inner self. On a micro scale, my soul is the true inner self, while the outer is my thoughts, my movement, and how I reflect energy. I say, “How I reflect energy” because I am not energy, I am consciousness. Consciousness is the soul.

When life is flowing from a place that is disconnected from the soul, it is chaotic. It is as if one is completely asleep.

When you are asleep, I cannot see or hear you. It’s as if I am talking to a pile of Old Energy and there is no truth in your eyes. This is not a judgment, I really feel as if I am seeing and hearing reactions to conditioned, habitual living and not life in this very moment.

When you are asleep, you are reacting to life the way in which you believe you “should” or “should not” react, not from an outpouring of the soul.

I know this because I’ve done it. I’ve done it because I didn’t know any better. It was five years ago when I said I don’t want to asleep any more. I want to wake up. I want to wake up and be alive. It was five years ago that I realized that I was truly, deeply sleeping. That the light that I had within me was truly darkness. And for me that meant that I was living in my shadow self, the created self, and not from my soul. Not from my light. And that scared me.

It was at that point that I wrestled. I wrestled with who I was, where I was going, what I was doing. I wrestled with everyone around me, everything around me. I wrestled with my stupid decisions. With the way that the world was doing things. I wrestled in my marriage. I wrestled when I had kids.

I could not for the life of me see what was before me. I just felt like total, utter darkness.

I denounced my God. I no longer had any desire to be spiritual or religious. I no longer wanted to be the old me. I denounced my talents, my ability to song write and sing and love.

I hated myself. I hated other people. I hated everything and everyone. I saw darkness all around me. I moved fourteen times. I lived month to month. I struggled with everything within me if anyone has ever struggled.

I couldn’t do it any more. It’s just meaninglessness. The only thing that got me to put one foot in front of the other was to just live. Some days that wasn’t enough and I must’ve threatened for death hundreds and hundreds of times.

“I don’t want to live anymore. I don’t really want to die, but I don’t want to live.”

Yes, I said this time and time again, curled up in a ball on my bed or on the floor. In front of my husband mostly, sometimes in front of my kids.

Honestly, it was a few times getting high and the very last bit of my desire for truth that has brought me to this place.

I don’t really know exactly where this place is, but I do know that I am living from my soul. I am living from the deepest place of myself, light and darkness and all.

I get crazy revelations. Sometimes I see how the world is just a vast endlessness, with galaxies within me and outside of me and all around me and I feel infinitesimally small. This might have bother me immensely, to realize both the grandness of myself and the minuscule. Now it does not. Now I just embrace it.

This single thread throughout my life is this deep knowing and understanding of living from a soul level. I’ve read a lot of other people and had a lot of revelation and it’s most commonly called New Energy.

But it’s not new.

It’s old. It’s ancient. It’s the first Energy that created what we call Earth and everything around it (not that it’s the center, or anything). It’s what came out from God.

The only way I can move on and chalk up my life and more specifically, the last five years, is to acknowledge it as part of a process into a Divine energy. In an online course that I’m taking with Andrew Harvey, he calls it–as do other mystics–the dark night of the soul. It’s the second step of the four-part process. Awakening, Dark Night, Illumination, and Birthing.

The reason I can tell you all of this from my deep soul place is because I’m in the birthing process. I honestly can’t tell you exactly what that means, but I do know more and more of my true self is coming to the surface and I am finally leading my life from this space rather than my conditioned existence, the created self that I was living in only a few months ago.

I’m only an expert in one thing because I know beyond knowing what that soul place, what New Energy feels like. I’m beginning to accept that about myself.

I grow and change every single day. I’m constantly remembering feelings within myself that were lingering from times once past and clearing those feelings out, along with their energy.

Today my dreams brought up the feeling of being 18. Of being cheated on both by the guy who date raped me (my first sex experience) and by my dad who definitely cheated on my mom and finally announced he’d asked for a divorce (nine days after my 18th birthday). Cheated. Totally running into the feeling of being cheated on–going into the darkness rather than acting like everything is okay–so that I can live just a little more in the Now.

Don’t stop commenting. I know some of you have stopped commenting because I stopped talking about organizing your closet, or only stocking your fridge with a few days worth of food, or loving your neighbor or what not. I’m sure I got a little freaky on you and perhaps my writing voice changed a bit.

I’ve changed. I’ve changed immensely. Yet I’m still so very interested in your thoughts. Your changes.

You can count this as Week 5 of Rebel Evolve: Katarsis or whatever. But I don’t know. I don’t care about Online Courses or whatever. I just care about you and me. I care about you being the you that you want to be.

And forgive me if I write with an air of knowingness. Today is the day that I make a conscious effort to live as raw as possible in the Now. Not in what I was. Not in what I will be future. Just in the right Now.

Xx

Jenny

144,000

April 28, 2013 § 2 Comments

There are 144,000 energy vibrations throughout the world that connect all of us in unity. Not people or types of people, but vibrations. For we are all made up of energy, even in our physical form. Any individual et cetera can choose to be in flow with these vibrations or not.

Have you ever felt like you wanted to love someone, yet there was a block there? As if you were open (you presented your open self), yet they didn’t receive you. This is technically a blocked energy. If you are open with another and you can tell they have a guard up, that is truth. There is an energy field that they are protecting you from. Almost like a mote around a castle with the rejection being the alligators. Chomp, chomp!

You have the choice to feel or receive this energy. You can block the negative energy from another simply by saying internally,

“I do not accept your negative energy.”

After a bit of practice, you can begin to discover your own personal way of doing so through a revelation in creative thinking. Perhaps you will prefer imagery over a mantra such as…

• A light sabor blocking there yuck
• A bubble all around you that allows love out and in, but nothing negative
• A shield like that of a knight
• Or a positive energy that cancels out there negative from the heavenly plane

“Wait,” you’re asking yourself, “So are there 144,000 positive and negative vibrations total?”

That’s a great question, friend. There are a hundred and forty-four thousand energy vibrations and depending on the balance of the individual sending them will effect what they send and receive. You see, you can interact with these vibrations in any way you choose. If you choose from a balanced, conscious state, you will be interacting positively with the energy around you. All things in love.

If you are unbalanced, that is, if you are coming from a place that is negative, closed off, separated, unwell, victimized, and so on, from the world, you will send and receive negativity in the vibrations. Either is possible. It is your choice to choose.

Xx
Jenny

Spirit: Embracing the Darkness.

April 23, 2013 § Leave a Comment

When I began practicing Week 4 of this cleansing practice that I call Katarsis, I was completely unaware of the revelation I would receive. And, to be honest, a bit surprised. This week we are rebel evolving Spirit. Spirit, as I know it, is the embracing of the Divine Feminine side of myself. Also known as Mother Earth, darkness, and the like. I’m finding more and more that it is my grounding, comfort, and full acceptance of myself.

And that’s just it. Without the embracing of this side of myself, I am left with duality. I am left with loving one side of myself and hating the other. When the honest-to-God truth is, the only thing that is creating this illusion of duality is my very own perception. As I began to break down the walls that I’ve created in myself, I began to see truly see my spirit and feel it. I could palpably feel the door of my soul opening to a more synergistic freedom that I am that I am.

Here follows my disposition written while in the darkness. One can only admit that this self-referential perspective is just as loving, palpable and true as my “other” side. Hence, they can only be seen as one.

“I don’t even live the way I want to live. I don’t even choose the life I want to create. I don’t even allow myself to extend further past than my own self-talk of dreaming, of imagining. I have imprisoned myself in my very own walls that I illusory call “reality.” I have divinized my very own darkness and called it light. I have entrapped my joys and entranced my sorrows, none of which are real, so as to keep me from a true life of joy/suffering that I long for in the very deepest part of my being.

Here I am wanting community, creating it and destroying it. Here I am wanting connection, creating it and destroying it. Here I am wanting light, creating it and destroying it. I am choosing this path. Choosing this creation and destruction and for the life of me I cannot tell you why. I am deeply troubled, for I have found the pearl and my questions only go deeper still.

I thought I would realize I were awake and be comforted. Yet rather it has created complete unrest hitherto in. I’m awake! I’m awake! And I am still asking, still searching. I’m awake! I’m awake! And I have more questions still. The hole, the abyss, my darkness keeps getting deeper. I feel as though I am digging and will be until my ending days.

For it is not in this old way that I will find solutions. It is not in a practice that I will find comfort. It is not in my discovery of wholeness, my treasure within, that I will find myself completed. Alas, I am lost. And in my darkness, I am found.”

Yes, I wrote this in what many would clinically call a depression. I did not feel like lifting a finger. Yet in my darkness, I felt a oneness with myself by embracing it fully. During my dark moment I

• Stepped into my dark feelings
• Embraced my dark feelings
• Comforted my dark feelings
• Applauded my dark feelings
• Accepted my dark feelings

I did not make any attempt to get myself out of my funk. I did not chastise myself for feeling this way or that. I did not make material purchases or stuff the feelings as to numb myself from them. I embraced them with arms opened wide. At first this felt awkward. By the end of my few hour darkness–which has lasted days, if not weeks, in the past–I felt like a whole person still. I did not feel like I needed to get better, work through stuff, use positive self talk, or the like. I just felt whole. I just felt like me.

This is the embracing of Spirit. May you embrace your Spirit self this week. May you embrace all of you.

Love Awake,
Jenny

Getting Past the Aha!

April 14, 2013 § Leave a Comment

The best perspective I can offer anyone that I’ve learned up until this point is: accept the revelation and let it go.

What do I mean by this? Well, often we receive a transformative aha moment and we soak it up, we allow it to flow through our subconscious, and revamp our current paradigm into a new one. We evolve.

All of this is well and good. Yet what happens when we cling to it without allowing ourselves room to breath? When we bring every thought and feeling back to that moment we were transformed rather than living in the present? We are living in the past. You know, the time which has already come and gone.

So then where are you living if you aren’t here? Well, you’re not here, so obviously you were hoping for some time machine or what not so you could relive that mountain top experience.

Okay, I’m being quite a bit facetious, but seriously. It’s weird when you see it that way, right?

Let me offer an example: I had a series of sudden moments over a few months leading up to the suggestion from Rick Strassman–psychiatrist and researcher of DMT–to find an academic program or setting in which to research my hypothesis. This lead to much googling–or actually bing-ing–of graduate programs and research institutes until I found what I was looking for. After I had done my fair share, I took a break and had a revelation on what I really wanted. (Which happened to NOT be graduate school.)

Shortly thereafter, I found what sounded like an amazing program in Nor Cal. Fast forward two months, I couldn’t stop thinking about it! It was controlling my life. I wanted nothing else but for people to take me seriously. I wanted to have credentials. I even considered the global PhD program at Sofia University. I was stuck on people thinking I was smart!

What does it matter?!

I could not move past the thought collapse of that one idea. I was repeating that ego moment over and over, the idea that had partially come from me and partially from that beautiful, miraculous moment. I was innocently attempting to bring my revelation down to earth to apply what I had gained, yet I lost sight of, well, practically everything.

And here’s the key:

The evolution discontinues when we believe that we have “made it”. When the self-discovery exceeds the need and wants and halts into a place of excessive desire to have more of what was found and not build upon it.

Wasn’t that pretty? It was another aha moment just for you. To me that sounds like idolizing the moment rather than living in the truth. The moment becomes both being and doing. We view it from an ego perspective, a survival-based perspective, as if that aha is not lived out in some way, we will die!

The truth is: once the aha moment is reached, our experience–our life–has already been shifted. It goes into the computer that is our brain and shifts the paradigm. So that even if we forget it, even if it drifts off as quickly as it came, it has already entered into our consciousness and done what it needed to do.

“What about when the same revelation comes back again? What then?” you say.

Be teachable. That’s all I’ve got for you. Let go and be teachable. Say “thank you”. Little reminders are a beautiful thing. It’s as if the Universe is saying “I love you”. You can say “I love you” right back by consciously letting it go.

Xx
Jenny

Prayer: Practicing Consciousness.

April 9, 2013 § 1 Comment

This week we are discussing the evolving of Prayer: Practicing Consciousness from a rebellious and deliciously new and, at the same time, 2000 year old practice. This practice has been used since the beginning of time to keep oneself aligned with, you guessed it, oneself. Without a steady contemplation inwardly as a daily habitual practice, sometimes the outwardly can be all too influencing. That is never a good thing.

Otherness, as I will refer to anything but the inclusivity of you, is what I believe the ancients referred to as “demons”. Outside influences that are from any plane. You simply cannot deny that some people possess you–your emotions, your feelings, your actions, your thoughts–more than others. Whether it be from a dysfunctional relationship or the transient loitering in Starbucks, we’ve felt otherness.

Prayer is simply a speaking out–within yourself or aloud–whatever you are needing/wanting to be present in. Prayer is practicing consciousness. What I mean by that is you are bringing yourself to the present moment. Realigning and centering with the Here and Now. Rather than slipping into an ego state, that unattractive survival mode, it is pulling yourself to this very moment.

Hundreds of self-help gurus and motivational speakers will tell you all sorts of perspectives and give prayer all sorts of names. It is the idea that what you are creating in your mind in that moment is your future laying before you. The more conscious and unifying your mind is, the more aligned and true the outcome.

This isn’t about asking for all the glorious riches of the future, the material aspects. It’s about going as deeply within yourself, your true self to touch your soul, as possible that will give you future breadth. If what I just said was completely foreign to you, please understand that I am a lover of unity, truth, wisdom, knowledge, understanding, hope, joy/suffering. You may call me a harlot and I will rejoice!

This week practice bringing every part of your inner world to the present. Perhaps try this prayerful mantra for kicks, “Revelation, come.” Love be with you.

Xx
Jenny

Vegan: Feeling and Spirit Jenny Update. As many of you know, I am a vegan, so I didn’t make any dietary changes that were all too drastic. I do want to say that I joined a good friend–accountability is key–in removing caffeine and sugar from my diet. I am on day nine and oddly, I do not miss it and have been eating more greens

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    Love is Veggies.

    April 7, 2013 § Leave a Comment

    What if you could achieve love and happiness just by shifting your perspective? What if your dream life was right in front of you and you didn’t even know it? What if you could live the life you wanted–or thought you wanted–just by following a few simple guidelines that you found within yourself?

    Sounds pretty awesome, right? I’m not talking about religion. I’m not even talking about spirituality the way you’ve probably been taught to view it. I’m talking about truth.

    We all have truth within us. A way to override the system that defines us, creates who we are. If your brain was a computer (thank god it’s not), truth would be software that can override your old software commonly known as the subconscious. By updating it with some new snazzy iOS on a continual basis, you effect your very hardware that is you by default: Your beliefs, thought patterns, emotions/vital energy, and physical being. This leads to a life that is filled with more love and happiness.

    Now I’m not advocating for any one thing in particular, except for maybe love, but even then you can only do what you are comfortable with. You can only live in your flow today, in the present. So what choices can you make today that will lead to a tomorrow filled with more love and happiness?

    Just do one thing: Eat more veggies.

    I know it sounds stupid to some, but just think: what you put into your mouth effects your entire being! So if you could simply replace some of your animal based products with plant based one’s, such as kale, which has a hefty amount of vitamin K, C, A, B’s, fiber, folate, iron, potassium, and so on in 36 calories as compared to chicken’s tryptophan, B6 and B3, selenium, protein, chlorine, and phosphorous for 187 calories in 4 ounces.

    Kale is also love and happiness going into your tummy, while I cannot consciously say the same for chicken. I only want to put love and happiness into my body, that is why my life has brought me to a place of veganism. I chose it.

    If you would like love and happiness beyond what my blog offers, please feel free to email me at jenny lvoe at gmail dot com.

    Xx
    Jenny

    Moving Beyond Christianese (And any other one-sided speak).

    April 5, 2013 § Leave a Comment


    Happy Birthday to me.

    I’m trying to tread lightly. But who am I kidding? I stink at treading lightly. It is just not my style. Nor is the exclusion of others. Which is what this post is all about. Shoot dang. This is what this whole blog is about. Unity.

    So here I am over the past month going: How can I explain truth without cutting others out? My Grand Father Sir (GFS) expressed this in his own way and it took me a few weeks to see and hear it. And that’s okay. I’m glad I learned before my writing became: consciousness, consciousness, consciousness, consciousness, consciousness. And everyone got bored or I created those who liked my blog and those who believe I fell off my rocker.

    Here’s the down and dirty: I never was on my rocker.

    The great follow up is that if there never was a rocker and I have nothing to fall off then there really isn’t any point for fretting. You know who you are, you fret about me. You become concerned with my growth. What I call Rebel Evolve (see the Rebel link for a full on definition so we can be on the same page!!).

    What am I talking about here? I’m talkin’ bout tossing out the stuff inside of me that is not aligned with truth. That which is no longer working and replacing it and aligning it with truth. I think what frightens many–by “frighten” I mean to strike with fear or to become fearful–is that the evolving occurs at a faster rate than the one responding from a fear-based place. My husband, bless his heart (especially now that I understand this about him), has reacted to me this way until we had this aha moment* together. Now that he sees me in a clearer, more truthful light he sees the choice of reacting with love or with fear. That’s the place we all want to come to, including myself.

    How often do we react from our own fears and stay in the same place out of FEAR rather than love? How often? Is it possible that any time we have a negative reaction to someone else we are over-identifying with that we have fear about ourselves?

    And I’ll say it again: when we have a negative reaction to another–a reaction other than LOVE–we are over-identifying with their experience, situation, etc. and it is coming from our fear-based self! So what can you do about it?

    • Eat healthy, drink lots of water, keep caffeine intake before two pm, be aware of toxins around you, sleep 7-8 hours, have one or two close friends, be connected to community (a church, a moms group, a yoga studio, group therapy, a walking club, etc. Connect!)…get your basic needs met.
    • Take a deep breath (or use your relaxation techniques).
    • Listen and let it flow over you…you do not have to fix it!
    • Ask them what they want from you: feedback (your experience of them), advice from your perspective, and so on. Key: Just love them!
    • Translate it into your language.

    Above all else, let go. Love. See and hear from your heart, not your ego. This is not survival, this is living. We all come with baggage, perhaps more than many of us are willing to acknowledge–past lives, truth we have buried, lineage issues, etc. Starting at love will only lead us to love. There really is no harm, no foul in taking this stand point. I’m not really offering anything truly radical. This has been occurring since the beginning. This has been the way of life in the entire Universe and beyond.

    Move past language. Love today.

    Xx
    Jenny

    *Aha! Moments…I didn’t get this until I translated it into my language of “revelation” and more recently “quantum leap” or “brain jumping”…what it really encapsulates is a transformation, a change, towards (more) love, happiness, truth. Yeah?

    Yoga: Movement and Repose.

    March 26, 2013 § Leave a Comment

    The first tenet of Rebel Evolve: Katarsis is Yoga. What I mean by yoga is rebel evolving your viewpoint on moving your body (exercising) and resting (repose). So let’s look at a handful of lies we’ve been buying into regarding this said movement and repose. What we are looking to do is shift these misconceptions and cleanse them from our system. In doing so, we can live lives that are much closer to truth.

    Why “Rebel Evolve”? Well, we are rebelling against our beliefs and evolving them into Truth that is closer to that of reality. When we rebel, we throw out what is not working. When we evolve, we shift our paradigm to benefit us in a greater capacity. It’s a beautiful, on-going process to bask in throughout our lives.

    Let’s look at movement. Often we think of movement as what we do to keep our physical bodies healthy. 30 minutes a day, they say. Get that body moving! Yet what if 30-minutes a day you unthinkingly exercised, say lifting weights or walking on your lunch with a friend? Yet during that time you aren’t connecting? Connecting to your soul, to your true self.

    So ask yourself the following:
    • Why am I exercising?
    • What do I think about while exercising?
    • What do I believe exercise is all about?
    • Who am I exercising for?

    These questions, if answered with honesty, can guide you to Truth within you. Perhaps you will discover that you have an innate desire to begin a yoga practice, either in a class setting or at home. Maybe you will realize that during your movement throughout the day you aren’t checking in with yourself. And that’s okay. This post is about going back to that practice…of listening to the Truth inside of you.

    I recommend finding one pose on YouTube and doing it each day upon rising and another, more calming pose at night. Yoga is really about connecting to your true self. About listening to the quiet voice within you and connecting to that energy, both your own and that of the collective consciousness. You can do the same pose each day and night or switch it up however you would like.

    The Truth that we are going for isn’t in the pose necessarily (although I do believe each pose can hold its own energy and effect you positively to a greater degree at various times throughout your life). It’s the deep listening that comes along with it. This is a 4-minute lifestyle shift that will have a tremendous effect on your health. This simple embracing of movement has the capacity to encourage many healthy shifts in addition–let’s start with action!

    As you reframe your views on movement, shift those on rest as well. Sleeping is intentioned to be repose for the trinity–the physical body, mind, and spirit. To reside in that trinity during waking hours, you must give yourself space to have 7-8 hours of as calming sleep at all possible.

    Ask yourself:
    • What am I doing to create a sleeping space for myself?
    • Do I find my room/bed calming, comfortable, and inviting?
    • Am I participating in calming activities right before bed?
    • Am I dimming the lights, drinking decaf tea, and easing into it?
    • Am I drinking caffeine after two pm?

    As a mother of two young children–one of which is teething–I know how important a repose practice is for the wellbeing of my physical body as well as my capacity for an overflow of love the following day. Some nights are better than others, yet I still maintain healthy habits to foster the best possible sleep.

    “So, Jenny,” you ask, “What’s the point of all this? Why should I practice the yoga of movement and repose?”

    Great question! To love yourself!! That is was and always has been the point. The more you shift your beliefs by asking questions through internal inquiry, the more you will receive the Truth you are looking for! The more you are loving yourself!

    Please share your comments below!! And don’t forget to subscribe to never miss a post. Ooh! And share via Facebook or the like.

    Xx
    Jenny

    P.S. Don’t forget to be grateful for exactly where you’re at! :)

    Rebel Evolve: Katarsis.

    March 25, 2013 § Leave a Comment

    Rebel Evolve: Katarsis is a seven-week free Online Course. Join me and others as we explore seven weeks of fostering a healthy lifestyle. Beginning tomorrow, we will start by rebel evolving and focusing on Katarsis. By joining me in committing to this practice you are saying “yes” to a lifestyle shift to be in Truth.

    Katarsism is the trinity clarification, or “clearing out”, of toxins out of the self and ego to reside in consciousness. In short, cleansing the trinity–body/mind/spirit–to reside in the strength of the soul, which is Truth.

    This occurs in 5 purifying steps:
    1. Body: Healing of the physical; physical injuries, genetic deficiencies, and dis-ease. See Jesus’ healing of people (blind, deaf, leprosy, dead). Daily practice: Yoga, balancing movement and repose.
    2. Strength (Vital Energy): Cleansing of the energy; detoxification of toxins from what you have consumed or breathed/soaked in. Animal products are no longer consumed. This clears out negative vital influence (aka otherness from nature, animals, and other humans). Also, see Jesus casting out demons. Daily practice: Cleanses, Plant-based diet.
    3. Mind: The correcting of the mind. This clears out negative mental otherness (aka otherness from other humans, past funk). Daily practice: Prayer, practicing consciousness.
    4. Spirit: Katarsis is recognition of the ability to reside in consciousness, or Truth/God/Love. It is acceptance of the authentic self, or soul, as co-creator of your life. Daily practice: meditation, practicing collective consciousness.
    5. Soul: Katarsis is bringing yourself to the present moment and residing in the true self, residing in Love.

    We will begin this week with committing our day to yoga by simply doing one pose in the morning and one at night. More on that tomorrow. Please join me as we connect to Truth living within us and everyone and everything around us.

    The seven weeks are set up to add new habits beginning at the foundation seat of who we are as individuals and collectively to foster, you guessed it, Unity. Together we will move towards Liberated Unity, living a life that incorporates Truth from the trinity within us.

    I will be posting every Tuesday for guidance, healing, and encouragement throughout the next seven weeks. Specifically a new aspect of Katarsis will be explored. If you would like one-on-one email support and consulting, please donate any amount by clicking the “Donate Now” button and I will respond with a Welcome Letter within 24 to 48-hours. And please feel free to email me with any questions or comments.

    Looking forward to rebel evolving with you.

    Xx

    Jenny

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